The Whole Time I Listened To The Wrong Music

I would put on headphones

pick a longplay, cringe and try not to think

the less i think... the less i understand...

why does it have to hurt so bad

I'd try to work, away from your gaze;

I'd try to work next to it

it always comes out of somewhere, 

always something pouring out

first from my own eyes

then from my nostrils

then... you know... as you expect it

feeling fine skirt-wearing

feeling fine being noticed, for soft reasons

for soft meaning

absorbing shit, avoiding shit

all feels like shit, i feel like shit

give me meaning

give me meaning

make me alive

why would i live for myself

i have all i need

do you need me

i walk on the hope

that i'd be useful for someone else than me

let me dedicate my life to you

i want to end it for you

i want to end it for you

it all ends for you

i don't have cats... still wish i were a dog... wawa, wawawa!

let me say something,

let me sing you a song

in a tongue i don't know

a language that won't show

don't wanna talk about me

my eyes keep watching you

even when you are not there,

retinal persistence-brain tricks

i'm sorry to lie

i'm sorry to keep on lying

just trying to keep something

from this inconsistent flow

but my hands hurt me bad

when they sink in water

always saying something

always singing a song

in a tongue i don't know

showing too much that i know

this is my own reflection

on the sides of this fish tank

even when i'm not there,

retinal persistence-heart tricks

i don't want to lie

lying on my bed

keep on lying, on my bed

getting to work, then i cry

crying doesn't feel bad

before and after i've wasted all my thoughts

and tried throwing them somewhere

i love your picture,

i love your picture

i love your picture,

i love your picture

i touch myself please let me go deeper

how many take control here

i speak to everyone, remember to treat them well

before i treat them bad

i'm sorry to lie

sorry to keep on lying

just trying on trying those things

from this beautiful world

life is good, what a wonderful world

Kumatora (Short Hope 2015 Wash Your Teeth Before And After Going To Bed)

smell of grudge fills the air
conditioner for your perfume
i'm not in love

you are
so cute, when you
take a picture
i like it

fuuuuuuuck meeeeeeee
too drunk to fuck,
too drunk to fuck
so fuuuuuuckkk meee
too woke to fuck
we are too woke to fuck

these sounds link
to these clouds, wink


take it when,
a picture, lick it then,
like it then, hold
my heart in a cellphone
cells in a cell faune

bad breath
for keeping it shut
abandoned hospital shuttle
the coke, with a zero on it

stop reading this
you know, i know, you're reading this
i don't want you to, why are you still
coming through
why are you still here, i just wish you would
disappear

this a pear
hhhhaaa shamed
of the good times
because i miss the good times
but you blew the good times, you
blew the good times, but
i didn't want you to,
blew the good times, 'cause
i forgot the good times, and
i blame you for it, for
the good times in fact
we never had
we never had
we never had

i never had
always alone
wishing not
always alone
blaming you
for being alone
i blew it
because i'm alone
and i'll stay alone
and i'll stay alone
and i'll stay alone

it's gonna be fine

yes i think you're pretty, yes you're just my style.
i say i have no style but damn you make me shiver.
beauty on the inside fuck that when you ugly on the outside, it follows
i'd follow you anywhere but you know that? they call it a stalker
i'll stay in the corner gazing you gazing your ass gazing your feet
like a fucking creep that i am i'll collect the facebook pictures cause i'm obsessed
i have a file in your name that i hope nobody'll ever find about
when we talk sweat on my forehead and i got the erection
when you're gone feel like shit cause i looked like shit
then i think maybe if i wasted my mind things would go smoother
like i never watched a movie, how can you be so stupid, why can't we understand,
hate myself hate myself the more i hate myself, the more you'll avoid me
how can that not make sense, i'm not sexy i'm not clever, try my best
to be better, then you look at my pokemon shirt, what was i thinking
last time i tried lookin sexy i was 14, wore red skinny pants and shiny pointy shoes
wanted to look like alex turner ended up lookin like some stock image
you are amazing, you look amazing...
youre like music to my ears//as faint as a dream......
i see you...oh no
i see you...oh no, i swear,
what are you? i'm dead
where are you, never were there
were you there, were you anywhere
i see you...oh no
i see you...oh no, i swear,
what are you? i'm dead
where are you, never were there
were you there, were you anywhere
i'm sure it's gonna be fine...

weakness, the privilege, the easy way

kirin whisky with the mitsuya cider
prrup prrup leaning on the cider with no lean, i'm still cyber
fuck you i be smoking in my mind, cigarettes' shit, i shit on it
i smoke weed in my mind because i don't have weed what is happening
ace of angels in your ass while i'm making the whitey dance moves
oh nana no nae nae i'm not you i'm not ye, yes i'm white i'm still mixed
i still can't dance, wtf i don't care these music videos don't reflect me
i wish i wish i'd reflect thee but i'm here in the wifi room
typing on my keyboard like a fucking weeb fuck fuck call me what i am
a cat's a cat i can't even meow the jewels, jizz in my pants scrolling down instagram
like a real man i think i'm sexy when i give you the creepy look
fuck me you avoid the fuckboy for the right reasons, my socks white like my style
tuesday night got the club goin down as i sleepin at 11pm, three beers in i be wasted
fuck fuck the last time they thought i was cool i can't remember i was on pills, so were they
wish i could take the pills, i dont even own a phone, i dont even have friends
the ones i call my friends i dont talk to them cause i hate myself for having them as friends
i wsh theyd forget me, wish theyd forgive me, thats too fuckin easy, i be cryin im still breezy
got no breezies, still breezy, emo fuckboy watching tree growin hopin could grow trees
only trees i get its jus paper, i draw on it, i draw 2D gurls i dont have, at least they accept me
dont call me, dont call me, block me, block me, forget me
forget me forget me forget me when im back... hope youve forget me
all i think about is the hash rock waiting for me, all i care about, cause i hate you, i hate you
i hate myself, for loving you, i'll have the hash rock, i'll have the xan, ill have the xan
hash and tobacco, with one or two xans, yes i hate me, ill have the xan
goodnight goodnight goodnight, so easy to be white and male, so easy to hate me
easy way the weakness, easy way the weakness, privileged i be bless, to tell yall fuck off

emotional shawty postweed poetry

plantlife in need, landlife no heed

sealife is weed; before reaching the lid

in your presence time flees

they say you kill but i don't remember

living before you, leaving thanks to you

ho phantasm, ho the spasms,

ho the bad times, ho the down times,

that was nothing

that was nothing

that was nothing

because one thing i know for sure

one thing i will always remember

is that you'll never forget me, you will always

forgive me, as i promised you, and never failed you,

when i'm with you you are with me, whole time wit me

ho i love you, in a sweet solitary and neverending love

in the lowest of forms, i don't care, i don't care, they won't care

they never understood, between us, never compromised, either of us

always did it right

using left and right, fire in the lungs, starting down to end up,

in solitary confinement, where i felt fine, where i'll feel fine

wait for me bitch, wait for me, i'm coming for you, coming... for you <3

Dam_ned_Aged

I...i don't know
"i don't understand"
"slowly... gradually we realized... [...]"
this is a crime
this a song title
UL UCH SO OB
social anxiety. won't change
and i miss my friend
but i keep on trying and i'm still up
those people trying and they still up
making motivational videos to keep it up
they might kill themselves but all i see
is they are reproducing so fucking much
fucking babies everywhere it's so depressing
why do they hang on so tight on keeping this fucking malediction?
for the first time in ages i was walking down the park and found myself
looking down, at my feet (looking down, at my feet)
and i thought to myself, "what a depressing world-
all we need is a fucking end to all this, and this will never fucking end-
at least i can say i spend my time jerking in the dark, but it ENDS_up nowhere-
everybody is so busy humping and REPRODUCING;;ALL_THE_TIME
EVERYTIME;_;EVERYFUCKING.MISTAKES
-i'm not judging, i'm terrified, all the people,
so many people, watching themselves, avoiding, sinking slowly
in their mobile phones, sleeping all the time, going home
reproducing, feeding, beating themselves, nobody seek help?
we don't need motivational videos
who the fuck needs motivational videos
_SIG-H; WE NEED an end on all this, we need the worst, we need to
"Kaijū"this shit up/shit on this world, non-binarynugenderedspecies to s h i t on this wurld
yalldoomed, yall rap, yall smoke tobacco, burn the ganja fields and kill yourselves for 1once
take up the swords and slash the throats, noaf enix, noaf .ing, we burn the ganja fields
and we gaze the inhale of the burning of the ganja fields
point final

Alpha Rainbow Mika

Spring in Fall Punch a hole In a face In your face

Suck it out Make it up Look at me Down at me

Eat my fist Check my thrist Do the thrist Burned the list

Watch my eyes Match my looks Upon hooks You're lost now!

Spit your guts Put my face In your hat Stupid brat

Are you man I'm human I'm no gal Like you know

You don't know You don't know HaHaHa You don't know

Why Why Spring in Fall Void in mind I do mind

It's nightfall Now sleep tight U & Me Ume Mi

Rainbow trout In nightsky In moonlight 

Aqueous moon Soiled my pants I'm sorry 

Oh my Is it you It's not you Stop thinking This is how

Then fight back Then come back Yes I'm back Oh at time

Oh at times Ha Oh Yes All the time Oh God Yes

Chō happy Wavery Salt like sea Salted slug, yes you see

I'll take you Promise you And if you, don't need to...

Oh if you, don't need to...

God, Thank You Rainbow Mika, I need You

Mika As The Sun

emerging from the sunrise
feeling so sad......waking up

i'm dying for you
am i dead for you
see you everywhere, see you nowhere
don't even remember your face
did you have eyes

at night i lose
i lose my temper
stream of tears
that don't feel like anything
i don't feel (like) anything

no hurt
in every heart
hunger or, malheur

smells like rotten insides
i'd slice myself open
with that fake katana
my dick on your face
thanks
what did i miss

crying at the zoo
wishing i were you
wishing you were me
wishing you were here
what did i miss

fill my blank ocean
fill my blank ocean
fill my blank ocean
fill my bank account

MY COMPUTER IS NOT A TOY. MY COMPUTER IS NOT YOUR FRIEND. CAN YOU GUESS IF I'M FEELING FRIENDLY

  could you  stop...

stop  turning  down  computer

stop turning down my computer.

STOP TURNING DOWN MY COMPUTER.

STOP TURNING DOWN MY COMPUTER!!!!

THE SHIT'S NO LOW BATTERY!!!!

THE SHIT DON'T HAS A BATTERY!!!!

DON'T FUCKING TURN DOWN THE COMPUTER

DON'T FUCKING TURN DOWN THE COMPUTER

I DON'T CARE IF YOU NEED THE CHARGER

I DON'T CARE IF YOU NEED THE ADAPTATOR!!!!

FUCK YOU AND MOVE YOUR ASS TO GET WHAT YOU NEED!!

DON'T TURN DOWN THE COMPUTER!!

I'LL DO THE FUCKING SAME

I'LL DO THE SAME OH YEAH

I DID THE SAME OKAY

I DID THE SAME OH YEAH

BUT NOBODY KNOWS

NOBODY SAW OH NO

I'D SWEAR NOBODY SAW

TELL ME THAT YOU SAW??!?

NO!!!

TELL ME THAT YOU SAW!!!

I KNOW YOU SAW!!!

I SAW YOU SAW!!!

I'LL SOW YOU KNOW!!!

I'LL SOW THE BEANS

I'LL GROW TALL AND AND AND

DON'T FUCKING TURN DOWN THE COMPUTER

DON'T FUCKING TURN DOWN MY COMPUTER

I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR SOMETHING

I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE SEARCHING FOR MEANING

I

WON'T

CARE

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE CHARGER

DON'T FUCKING RISE MY ANGER

O~w No~w This Mustn't Be It! So Be It!! Beat It!!! Beat It!!!

nice gift from overseas, nice gift from the other side
that gender seems to have brothers, those may be my nieces
por favor put something on youtube that i can easily avoid
por favor sit in front of me that i can obviously avoid
one sting, one mosquito, one mosquit
didn't want for my toe to be ____ oh my god i think i fell in
waw you are so swift to read
hahahahahajajajajajaguadalajera

yeah i definitely yearn your lower groin
it's all i see i swear it's all i see
the more i listen and the more i see
it's starting to scream right you're not even ashamed right
on the left then on the right right now tell me what to do
oh but nevermind as i told you i'm not listening to you
it's this game i always hated but it's funny to not care
still you should take care because as i leave, i'm in no care
i'll still be the first to ask you to care so please care not caring about it

you're in il cairo know in france we say le caire
if it's not claire i wouldn't care give you le meaning
HA...HA....HA....WA...WA...HWA...JAAK...JAAAKKK....JAKKKKRR...... ... .. .

Where's My Carbon Copy

I want to eat your ass (now) want to eat your ass
Smoke five pounds of weed before french kissing your ass
Look dead in your eyes make you cry of nervousness
Look dead in your inside make you cry of arousal
I want to feel so fly go out and kill a cop
Carve a bong in his sacrum and blow smoke in his cranium
I want to feel something, want to feel something,
Stop feeling something, before I feel anything
Let me feel alive let me shut my fucking mouth
Shove it in your genitalia, want to suck the labia, then dig the vagina
Hold it do me that blowback claw my back lick the six pack
You need the D but I do just need you
You need the D but I do just need (you)
To need me
Free me from the hate that is consuming me
I gaze into your eyes I swear you could just kill me
Right now, kill me right now, you could stab me in the heart
And I would die so far from what I thought I needed...
From what I wanted to leave...
This place is crowded
Outer space outer love for everyone (is what we all need)